Hubris

Monday, January 24th, 2000

I’m going through the files on my computer right now, cos Thomas said he’d reformat it for me, and I found this letter I wrote to my sister Anji on March 11th, 1998, and it amused me heaps so I thought I’d post it up here cos I really have very little to say. And yes, I know I’m in for ridicule now.

11th March, Wednesday

Dear Anji…

Hey darling, I figured that it’s impossible to get ahold of you on the phone so I guess I should probably write to you. I’m at A.I.T right now, in my Information Technology class, so I have heaps of spare time. This class is soooooooooooooo easy, it’s so goddamn boring. It’s my own stupid fault though – I should have set a test to cross credit, but I figured that since I don’t know how to use spreadsheets and stuff I’d take this course and learn how to use them.

Oh well, so that’s my life. What have you been up to lately? Karen said you broke up with Jed! Awww honey – are you okay? I’m sorry to hear that, if it’s a bad thing, but if it’s a good thing then I’m glad. I’m getting Favourite Places to Wellington I think, so I can call you anytime after 6pm for free… so if you wanna talk to me ever, call me and I’ll call you right back. That is, if I’m not online or someone’s not already on the phone.

I’m on the phone quite a lot these days though. It’s so bizzare, and I’ll tell you why. You know Amy, right? Well, her boyfriend Neil has a friend called Brian, that I’d talked to once or twice on IRC before. Anyways, Neil gave Brian my telephone number, and so I was like “yeah right” even though Neil told me Brian would call me as soon as I moved in. I moved in on Saturday, and Brian rang me Saturday, Sunday AND Monday nights. In fact, I was kinda suprised that he didn’t ring me last night as well – maybe he figured he was coming on too strong or something. Anyways, I’m going out to a Lagered Party with him and his friends on Friday night – Lagered are CDs of remixes stuff. I’ve got one of them – some of it’s cool, and some of it’s hell cheesy. So that could be interesting. Amy and Andy keep teasing me about my “date ” – they’re coming up to Auckland for the weekend, so they’re threating to play Proud Mother on Prom Night at me on Friday. And Saturday we’re having a girlie’s night in, which will be cool. Last time they came to Auckland I was majorly depressed so we drove around playing the Spice Girls and singing at the top of our lungs – it made me feel soooooooooo much better.

I was depressed because of Matt, obviously. He was staying at the same place I was staying for a while, which was hell awkward. He told me that my letter to him was “no big revelation” – WANKER! It was such a revelation to ME! Oh well – men just suck. Anyways, the day that Amy and Andy came to Auckland like two weeks ago, Matt goes to Amy “because she can’t have me, she’s trying to keep you two from me” OH! I was so not impressed with that, and I told him so too. We’re sorta friends now – I’m trying to make him jealous about Brian, which is sort of working, cos I’m all “oh, he’s just being friendly” and I know Matt doesn’t believe me. I went to see Matt’s new apartment on Monday – it’s in the centre of the city, and has brick walls and wooden floors but it’s fucking TINY!!!! The lounge/dining room/kitchen is the size of your bedroom, and there’s only one bedroom upstairs, and he’s sharing the flat with his friend Pete. They’re paying $290 a week for it, which Matt really can’t afford given that he’s on the dole – he’s SUCH a poser!!!! He’s gonna have to get a Mcjob – ha ha ha. I really hate him sometimes!!!!

But that’s okay. I guess it’s a good thing that we’re still thereorectically friends, even if he’s a chronic user. Enough about him. Let me tell you about my flat instead. I love it passionatly. My room’s a wee bit on the small side, but that’s okay cos it fits my bed, my chest of drawers, and my desk with my Baby on it. I LOVE my new computer soooo much, I love it all to pieces. The lounge/dining room are big and spacious and soooo neat and tidy. Our dining room table is plastic outdoor furniture, but that’s okay. The kitchen’s got fucking everything in it – even a waffle maker and a popcorn machine – SCORE! And a fairly large TV and video, and two lovely girls, Kelli and Celese who are about 21. The bus is 500 metres up the road (there’s a stop right outside the door, but that’d be three sections instead of two) and buses go every ten minutes, and the shower is high pressure. All this for only $100 a week.

So I’m happy. I’m trying to be good and do the dishes and be considerate and all of that so that they don’t get mad and throw me out. Celeste’s b/f Yuklid (sp?) and Kelli’s best friend all work at AEG finances together so they’re all tight and intimate together, but that’s cool. I really really should start to do more study – I’ve been busy lately getting my stuff in order. And doing a lot of shopping. I bought the coolest top ever, even if it did come from Glassons, and it looks good too – I think. It’s purple meshy stuff, two layers and tight fitting. And I bought a black slip as well, that I’ll wear under it, cos the top is quite short. I’m gonna wear it on Friday, to my non-date. God that’s weird – I’ve spent like six hours on the phone to this guy, and his friend Neil keeps sending me messages going “YOU SCORED” – weirdo.

At Home in the Evening….. (I attached and emailed my letter to you to my Home Computer)

AIT’s pretty goddam cool too, even though this computer class is sooooooo annoying. So slow! Oh well… at least SOMETHING is cruisy. It’s so bizzare having all these really smart people in my classes – not normal! Classes were delayed a week due to the power crisis, and then tutorials were canceled for another week cos the State Insurance Building was too dodgy without air conditioning. But now tutorials are back in full – it’s almost the same 22 people in each class – a couple of people have crosscredited out of sociology and shit, but are in all the other classes. It’s really cool – we’re all very friendly and get along well and are starting to plan social events outside of AIT. This girl Michelle who reminds me sooooo much of Anushka rides the same bus home as me, so that’s cool as well – someone to talk to! So yeah, it’s all very cool. I do still sort of sit by myself in lectures, but maybe that’ll change soon. Classes range from interesting to boring – depending on the temperature and the lecturer that day.

Oh well – at least I’ve been eating okay. Veges and all. Wow – it’s like so weird being a grown up! I have automatic rent payments going through, and I wrote a cheque the other day – wahoo! This adult stuff ain’t all that hard. Now I guess all I have to do is start studying! Fun fun fun. And try and set and stick to a budget. I had to hike up to Real Groovy today and spend $23 on my ticket to the Lagered Party. Oh well – I guess it’ll be an experiance. I’m actually mad at Brian right now, but more mad at ME for being mad. I’m like, hurt that he didn’t call yesterday, and then today when I heard the phone ring in SS, I knew it was him – but all he wanted was Amy’s telephone number. And Amy’s supposed to be ringing me tonight, but she hasn’t yet, and I really really wanna talk to her, but I rang her last time, and she’s in Hamilton, so it’s a toll call. Hmmmm…. descions, descions. I’m bored, to be honest. I guess Brian will have to call me tommorrow to make arrangements – he’d sure as hell better not stand me up after all the head space I’ve given him. I even fucking dreamt about him last night – kissed him and all in my dream. God damn, I’ve so got to stop getting to know people without meeting them first!!! I bet that Neil and Amy would have told him how weird I think he is for calling me so much. It was so bizzare on Monday night on the phone, cos he told me how Neil and him were discussing that I was good looking (both of them have only ever seen my photo that’s on the webpage) and so Amy beat Neil up cos she was at his place and overheard. Ha ha ha – bet it’s not a true story. I’ll have to ask Amy I guess.

Did I tell you I went to Pearl Jam? Well, I went with this girl Charlotte and this guy David (yeah, internet people) but we lost David, so i was just with Charlotte the whole time. It was so funny – she cried when they played Black, which is her favourite song. So yeah, I laughed at her – but in an understanding kinda way. They played the first couple of bars of that Split Enz song and everyone laughed, then Eddie put on a life jacket and thanked the beach people for saving his life last time. He also climbed up all this scaffolding in Even Flow – but I have to admit I could not see him until Charlotte told me what everyone was cheering about – cringe! Ah well, it was still amazing – but I think I liked the concert I went to with you and S of S was better.

How is S of S anyhows? Did my dectectiving skills come in handy? Maybe I should join the A Team when I grow up – it was fun!!!

Well, I rang Amy and Andy’s flat in Hamilton, and Amy was out dropping Neil home again, so I talked to Andy briefly, and asked her to call me back when Amy gets home, cos I paid last time. Andy said she’d just met Brian… ooooh, wanna get the full scoop! Hopefully they’ll call soon, and Amy won’t stop over at Neil’s!

So, I think I’m gonna try and set up my printer now – that should be exciting, huh? And then I’ll have your letter printed out, and all I’ll have to do is buy some envelopes and stamps and find a box – wahoo!

Love and Miss you lots, and the hot chocolates in Auckland so do not compete with the ones and the company at Smacksalotl!

Jo