Tag: counselling

• Long snake moan

  I have been reading my journal from 1999, spurred on by stumbling across Shakespeare in Love on TV and deciding to find what I’d written about it, and realising what was going on with my life at the time, but anyways, I fucking wish I could be that honest and upfront right now. I mean, […]

  Joanna

  December 23, 2007

  Journal

  ’80s movies, 1999, anji, awa, beach, bears, berrin, counselling, depression, Fatty Si, gym, karen, kat&kane, kateb, kowhai, Lisa Fur, martha, meds, movies, old journals, panic attack, pjs, quiz, restaurants, russell brown, shirley, smoo, source code, ssc, tapiri, veronica mars, wellingtonista, why i don’t do drugs anymore, work

• A spring clean for the September Queen

  Lots and lots of stuff is going on right now. First and most important to you is that I will be selling my stuff at Zinefest. You should come along, say hi and buy my zines and sugar scrub. And yes, in case you’re wondering, if I slept with you prior to 2007, you will […]

  Joanna

  September 5, 2007

  Journal

  101 stories, arcade fire, career, counselling, eap, feminism, flatmate wanted, i want babies, Lisa Fur, magazines, meds, periods, phoenix foundation, sparc, zines

• Now officially (OFFICIALLY!) fixed

  Coldplay is welcome to try, but they’re not going to be able to do it, because as of today, I am officially fixed. I know this because today I bid my counsellor goodbye and didn’t make another appointment. Not forever, of course, because I’m aware I will have lapses, but for now my mind is […]

  Joanna

  April 24, 2007

  Journal

  bowling league, counselling, wellingtonista

• Robot-tusslin’

  So apparently, unless you want to lie away for a significant part of the night listening to your stomach making noises similar to that of Homer’s when he took many a cannonball to the stomach in ‘Homerpalooza’ (one of my all-time favourite episodes), it’s not a good idea to swig most of the bottle of […]

  Joanna

  April 19, 2007

  Journal

  blogs vs. journals, bowling league, brad, clothes, counselling, Creative Wednesdays, depression, ginger, hadyn, heather, illness, japan, johubris, kimberley, martha, matariki resolutions, mighty mighty, nail polish, starlajo, Tokyo, wellingtonista

• The Chocolate Weekend

  My conversation with Smoo on Sunday morning when I got up (okay, it was actually 5pm, rather than the morning): Me: Smoo, will you provide me with an alibi if I go next door and rip off the heads of the children who have been screaming ALL FUCKING DAY stupidhoppeduponchocolatefuckheadsihatesthem? Smoo: I was going to […]

  Joanna

  April 10, 2007

  Journal

  101 stories, bart, bowling league, boys boys boys boys boys, brazil, bust, citalapram, counselling, country club, flat dinners, frindigo, gilmore girls, gym, hungover, i need to fix a link, karen, kateh, lani, laundry, magazines, me as a cat, musician ’06, nzaid, otters, pure joy, shirley, smoo, wellingtonista, you’re so entertaining

• The five year old with the black dog

  Today, as expected, was really hard. It’s always the hardest when you’ve been to the doctor’s, and you’ve admitted to being crazier than you wanted to be, and you’ve been forced to change the reasoning for your request for fewer hours at work from the very constructive awesome “I want more time to work on […]

  Joanna

  March 29, 2007

  Journal

  101 stories, citalapram, counselling, depression, gym, how _are_ you?, i am not a superhero, kimberly, me in the media, meds, nzaid, wellingtonista

• 200mg codeine, 1200mg brufen, 1725mg voltarin

  I wrote this four years ago, on March 16 2003, and I’m reprinting it now because it is a reminder of how far I’ve come, and how even when I’m having a crappy day, at least it’s not like that. And because I feel really disconnected from the girl who wrote this, and that is […]

  Joanna

  March 16, 2007

  Journal

  allison, ammy, bopha, cipramil, codeine, counselling, depression, fluoxetine, good tom, kalpana, kateh, meds, nikki, self harm, the s word, volcanic

• The Queen of Blogging

  Apparently Russell doesn’t read Next. If he did, he’d know (because somehow apparently it’s easy to miss on Hubris, because it’s only like OH I DON’T KNOW, THE TITLE OF EVERY SINGLE FUCKING PAGE) that “Joanna McLeod doesn’t like the word ‘blog’”. In fact, that’s the first sentence of the piece, entitled ‘Blogging On’, on […]

  Joanna

  February 13, 2007

  Journal

  amusing conversations with health professionals, anxious, bic runga, blogs vs. journals, brave, cleaning, clothes, counselling, country club, creative, flat dinner, food, gym, home decor, i need to fix a link in this post, injuries, karen, kateh, lani, me in the media, nauseous, public address, russell brown, shirley, smoo, stds, swimming, trophy wall, wellingtonista

• In which I celebrate my achievements

  Once again, I have been neglectful, and for that I apologise. But look outside. Do you really expect me to be indoors at my computer when it’s as gorgeous as it has been for the past week? Well yes, as a matter of fact, I spent all day at my dining room table typing away, […]

  Joanna

  February 7, 2007

  Journal

  90210, beach, boulot, clothes, counselling, ex-cow-orkers, exercise, irc, laundry, Lisa Fur, lyall bay, meds, nzaid, on the up, outdoors, pure joy, summer, swimming, torrid, unavailable men, working from home

• The return of the rant

  So I know that I have yet to write about my Big Day Out weekend, but I’m hoping I will do that tomorrow because quite frankly, I am too damn tired to do it right now, because it will be a lot of effort, and will require flickr links, and pillaging Lisa’s photos and all […]

  Joanna

  January 26, 2007

  Journal

  amusing conversations with health professionals, anji, assault, bdo, beach, boulot, brave, counselling, depression, drinking with workmates, dylan, family, food, i like words, it’s not okay, Lisa Fur, meds, mental health days, nauseous, nzaid, semantics, smoo, swimming, taxi drivers, the floor is lava, wairarapa, wine